Knit Lit

Trying

It has been a few days since my declaration of wanting to look for and pursue happier thoughts. ‘Cause you know, I live in my head most of the time; and I can say with complete certainty, I don’t want to live with such a Crabby McCrabby Pants.  I’ve been consciously trying to see the good things (big and small) and trying to catch myself when I have negative thoughts.

I’ve noticed a few things in this little exploration.  When I start my day off in prayer, I have I good day.  When I hit my snooze button 5 times before jumping out of bed and speeding off to work without my prayer time, I have a really, really bad day. Now, I know rushing could be the cause, but I’m convinced it is the praying thing.  When you spend 30 minutes first being thankful for all you have (including the job you really hate, but are grateful for because it keeps you in yarn) and then praying for all the people who are having tough times with death, illness and job loss; the tacky co-worker who takes personal time off at the most inconvenient times without asking if you had plans and leaves you with a mountain of her work to finish up on top of your own doesn’t seem too terribly important.  See! Crabby McCrabby Pants!  Sigh.

Mostly I’m doing okay with things.  I’ve really fallen out of the habit of writing about what I’m experiencing, so forgive me while I get back into the groove of things.  So, here are a few good things in a really frustrating/bad day:

  • I heard about this video this morning.  It made me smile.
  • I made it to work on time even though I hit the snooze button 6 times.
  • Whole Foods Strawberry Shortcake
  • Project Runway starts tonight! Yea!

July 29, 2010 Posted by | Blessings, Faith | 2 Comments

Hello

I know it has been a long time since I posted.  I know that everyone who used to read this blog is probably long gone.  However, for those of you who are left, I wanted to explain my absence.  When I started this blog, I was in the grips of becoming a full-fledged Knitter. I was making the transformation from knitting as a cute little hobby to knitting as a character trait I use to describe myself.  During this transformation, I discovered there were lots of people out there who loved knitting as much as I do.  I thought having a blog would be a wonderful way to connect with these people.  It became a fun way to share my passion.  Let’s face it; there are few spouses out there who are willing to discuss the pros and cons of working in the round versus knitting flat.   However, on the internet, there is ample opportunity!  I was so excited to embark on this new world.

At first it was fun, but it soon became a chore.  I didn’t really have anything to say, but I thought I “should.”  (I hate that word by the way.)  It started to feel like all I was doing was complaining.  I didn’t want to be one of those people who see the negative in everything.  And seeing as this is exactly how my nature trends to, I find it difficult to be positive in real life much less on a blog.  I thought it would be better not to post than to continue a litany of rants and aggravations.  So, I stopped posting for a little bit. That “little bit” turned into quite awhile. 

Today I was reading another blog.  She and her family have been having difficulties.  Apparently, they are not life threatening  in any way, but still difficulties nonetheless.  She described it as “life.”  I like that term.  Life happens.  Nobody’s life is perfect.  Things happen.  I started thinking about that one too.  I seem to handle bigger life events better than little ones.  Having a baby, geting divorced, getting married, moving – I think I handled all that like a champ.  There was a beginning, a middle and an end to each of those events.  Yes, there were strong feelings associated with each, but I knew where I was headed.  (Though with Boy Child, I’m a little scared about where we are headed sometimes. Hee.)

Now that Hubby and I have settled into our lives and made it past the first little bit of figuring out how to live together, I am so happy.  Boy child is in a really good school he likes.  I love Hubby more everyday.  I have a good job and even got a raise.  Hubby has a good job.  We have a lovely home.  Yes, life happens, but things are great.  Here is where the negativity tendencies in my personalities come into play.  Without a major event happening in my life for me to focus on, I let “life” get me down.  I let other people’s neuroses affect my own.  I’m letting other people make me unhappy.  How absurd is that?!?!  I am letting myself be unhappy.   Not anymore.

I want to make a change, and I think coming back to the blogosphere may help.  I want to be able to see all the good things in my life.  That is a little hard to do when all you can see is the frustration.  If, however, I have to post about all my good fortune, I’ll have to look for it.  So, that is my plan. I’m hoping that posting = seeing the good things in life.  I’m crossing my fingers it will work.  Can you cross your fingers, too?

July 15, 2010 Posted by | Blessings, Uncategorized | 3 Comments